Full-Blown Pain: A Personal Battle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden sensation bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by quick jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically begin with severe discomfort behind one eye that persists up to several hours.

About one in 1,000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. Another found 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize life around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest bizarre remedies for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by international headache committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery that supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains slow. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which apparently soothes the bouts of some individuals.

But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

The official guidance need revising to reflect a
Allison Velasquez
Allison Velasquez

A seasoned gaming journalist with over a decade of experience covering casino trends and slot machine innovations.